My Confession-I call for accountability
I'm more addicted to fantasy than I am to real life. I see this because I desire to passively watch a fantasy world in a movie or novel than I do to fully immerse myself in this life, as it is now, resting in all circumstances regardless of how I feel and receiving the grace of God. I'm addicted to counterfeit pleasures outside of God. Instead of indulging in the goodness of God and receiving His benefits and blessings, I settle almost every day for counterfeits from sexual ones to gluttony to caffeine to laziness and passivity. Instead of humility, I've settled for self-pity and a victim mentality. Instead of contentment, I've settled for indulgence sexually, physically and emotionally. Instead of loving others, I've settled for patronizing for my own ends and my own glory. Instead of love toward God, I've settled for doing things for God unto my own ends and my own glory. Instead of taming my selfish nature into submission to my will and my will in submission